SWEDEN
Writing my first one since we came back!
I can't really describe how good it s 2 be back again:) Even though it's soo much colder here it's amazing thnnx to my friends. It's like I never went away- in a good way!
And the reaction I got when we came through that door in that restaurant...:) Screaming and smiling and happy-tears:)
The one thing that has changed the most is my/our alcoholconsumtion. It's gone down with 80%. On Gran Canaria it's aaaall about the booz! You can't meet up with your friends without drinking...Why is that?
I really welcome these get-togethers with just coffee and tea. And just socializing in a normal way again. That's probably the thing I've missed the most!
Going to a house...party(?) tomorrow:) There will be alcohol, there will be smiles, there will be bliss!
Despair
Nothing is ever easy!
Our "friends" who were supposed to look after Bella till her testresults for that rabies-shot came...which is about two monthes. They just changed their mind. Two fucking days before we go:(
They lack respect and are afraid of committment. What bothers me the most is their indifference, We might have to put her down. Kill a living, healthy pet. Because of you fuckers!!
The thing with Gran Canaria is that you can't trust anyone. Not even your "friends".
And a funny thing is that this isn't the first time this happened. Last summer on the day before we were going to Sweden it happened. One of Tomas', now exfriend, did the same thing.
These two last years has been nothing else but a pain with occasional happy moments.. One thing is for damn sure- I will never ever come back to Gran Canaria. All these fuckers has ruined it for me.
News!
We just found a home for her, thanks to a tip Lady Adele Claire Coultate.
All day I've been crying despair, not knowing what to do. But I pulled myself together and and almost forced Tomas with me to the vet, asking them if they knew anyone who could help us. And they did:) They'll even send Bella to Sweden, so Tomas won't have to come back to this place.
I have to say: Not all people you meet here is total bullshit. Adele, Priya and Barkha- you're definetly not bullshit. And thanks again, Adele.
I'm weird! Or am I?
Well... one of my favorite things is to go on youtube and get irritated, angry and maybe even hate! xD
I go there to watch clips of so called celebrities clips of their musicvideos, interviews...and just clips where you ca see how stupid they really are and how much they lack intelligence and talent. I love it! I can't stop! In matter of fact...I'm doing it now xD
I love to love & I love to hate... Is it just me?
Leaving...
When I leave Gran Canaria - The Island God forgot about, It's only two things I'll miss with it: The Beach and Pull and Bear! And Barkha- but she's not a thing. She's a person!:P
But it's quiet sad that after three years in this place I'll only miss two things... it should be at least be... eight... Oh, yeah! The summer on GC is swell as well!:)
Well... I'll write later tonight! Going to the beach! Kick ass weather today, so we'd be stoooooopid if we wouldn't go! C YA
ANGER!!
Well... The guy who were supposed to help us move back to Sweden has fucked us over! He was supposed to call us... like two weeks ago. So we started to wonder if he forgot about the call.
So tonight were going to San Augustín to see if we can find him.
So I tried to get a hold of him..
I called him twice the day before yesterday, twice yesterday and three effing times today. Okay, I know he might be working during the days but how much time and energy does it take to write a textmessage or give me a call? And he hasn't lost his phone either.. The phone is working and I always get to his answeringmachine..
So tonight were going to San Augustín to see if we can find him.
He promised us to help us out. He promised us he would help us get all our things on the plane, he promised he would get us cheap flighttickets. He almost promised us an apartment in Gothenburg.
And the all of a sudden he stops calling and won't answer his phone when I'm calling..
I would actually be more okay with it if he could just answer his damn phone and say that he, unfortuneatly, can't help us with what he promised instead of just ignoring us.
Fucker, fucker, fucker....
Friedships
I've recently started to think about when friendships gets to an abrupt halt. These thoughts started when one of my friends in Sweden told me some really disturbing about his friend, who used to live with him.
My friend had taken this boy in when he got thrown out the house because his parents didn't approve his sexuality.
Anders (my friend) took him in without any problem at all. This boy got his own apartment on the topfloor of Anders villa. Soo nice of Anders to do something like that.
But now.. a year and a half later.
This boy has never paid rent since he moved in, he's stolen Anders flat screen tv and sold it, he's stolen money, computers... He's stolen and sold things from Anders for thousands of kronor. Why? We suspect drugs.
This boy has also tried to destroy Anders relationship with his bf. He's called Anders bf's mom and told her about the private things about him that no mother should know about her son.
The sad part is that I got to know him just in the beginning, when he'd just moved in and it's such a big difference in his behaviour. Drugs...:S
And I also started to think about when friendship ends in a more subtile way. One of my absolute best friends (or former best friend, I guess) appearently moved to home country and gotten married. This happened about a year ago and I'm still waiting for her to send a letter or an e-mail to me telling me she's gotten married. After all... Marrige is a very big thing... one of the biggest in life besides childbirth. And I can't help but feel a bit offended. Because we used to be such good friends when we were younger. We used to sit in my kitchen and smoke and drink coffee for hours and hours. I miss it soo much now when I think about it. That was the most fun part of my life so far. And for her to get married and not tell anyone, accept Gaby (who probably got told to spread the word) is fucked up... I'm soo hurt. It almost feels like she's lied to us...
Well... I bet and hope she's got a really good reason why she didn't tell us. I might be her parents fault. Fucking daft wankers! But her parents is another humourous story:P
New years eve!
I can't believe a whole year allready paased by! But even though it's gone by soo fast I can't feel but reliefed that it's over! It's been a rough year for me:/ I'm going to write about some of the biggest things that I remember of this year.
Factory Outlet
Well... I got fired the day befor new years eve. I got accused for stealing and threatened me with telling the police. Even though I didn't do anything of all these things they accused me for it still took a bit toll on me. I got a bit depressed there for a while.
Bar Desire
I worked there during gay pride and I had soo much fun! The staff was excellent and the guests were nice:) I got a lot of new friends. Even though we started to work early in the evening and finished at 4.30 almost every night I had a blast:) And I looked forward to each night:)
Our vacation to Sweden
Me and Tomas went to Sweden. We went to Stockholm, Gothenburg and my hometown:) I was soo reliefed to see how good Tomas and all my friends got together. I really appreciate that a lot! Tomas could only stay for three weeks.
Skara sommarland
An amusementpark I got a job in during the summer. I had a fucking blast:) Soo much fun... It was a lot of hard work but the staff there were about my age so it all got a lot easier because of that. Not only did I have fun but I earned money as well:)
Back to Gran Canaria
Well... that was quiet dreadful... Went to Stockholm by myself with a train which took about 2 hours. Then onto the next train to the airport.. And there I had to wait for about 6 effing hours:/ But It was quiet allright since I met a lovely couple from my hometown who were going to Greece. When I came to Gran Canaria I gave Tomas quiet a chock. He didn't know I was coming so soon:)
Halloween
OMG, that was soo much fun! Earlier that day I said that I didn't want to do anything. But then about two hours before Tomas finished work (he had a costume on) I started to paint my face.The crow/Edward Schissorhands/Joker. Went to Danny and Tony. Then Tomas came. We went to heaven and had good night:)
Bar Na Und
Tomas had been working there for about 3 months when I got the question if I wanted to work there. And I said of course. I was soo happy and really looked forward to it. But it came back and bit my ass. After the first night I felt like that wasn't a place for me, cos it really wasn't. I worked there for about two weeks and I can say without any hesitation that the manager in that place is the worst effing person I've ever met. Even though I said to him loud an clear that I've never made a drink in my life he put me to make drinks anyway... on a sathurday night. And when I didn't do the german style beer correctly he grabbed my arm and tried to drag me away.
That experience was actually worse than what happened in Factory outlet. That bastard actually made me cry when I was talking to my mum about work. And I'm not usually the on who cries for nothing.
And even though I was gone he still talked trash about me. His defense is: He thought I was trashtalking him
The fight
well...I just said what I felt. No more no less.
2010
I have great expectations. Were moving to Gothenburg as soon as possible. Tomas quits his job tonight:)
Now, we're hoping that we'll get that apartment of our dreams:) And Filip's moving in with us:)
Hopefully I'll get a job in Sweden or I might study psychology or PR:)
I hope you all had a great 2009 and that 2010 will be even better for you all!
Happy new year:)
Drama update
Well since the guy I had a fight with the other day is a co-worker with Tomas they were bound to talk about our fight we had. And they did last night...
R (lets call him that) told Tomas that my dislike for him really wasn't something he saw coming... Because he like me:O Which annoys me soo much more than if he would have trashed me! I'm serious!
We've known each other for about a year and a half and he has had a lot of opportunities to be nice and get to know me... But instead of talking to me he bought me drinks... Allrit that might be nice but... since we're not friends I can't really appreciate it. Do you know what I mean or do I sound like a total jerk?
I actually would have prefered if he'd tried to bond with me. Asked aboout my favorite color, band or if I have any brothers or sisters. A small gesture to show he wanted to be friends. But no, he bought drinks... Which only gives you a hang over.
Well... I am not going to obsess or dwell over this. It's not as if I lost a friend or anything... It just bugs me that he likes/liked me but treated me that way...
And even though he does like me, it still won't change anything. I know how I feel...
Oh and yeah... There was a thunderstorm last night:D I LOOOVE thunderstorms:) And it's said that a really ig storm comming in tonight:D Can't wait... I've never experienced a thunderstorm here and I've been wanting for one to come for sooo long! I hope lightning strikes outside my door:P
R (lets call him that) told Tomas that my dislike for him really wasn't something he saw coming... Because he like me:O Which annoys me soo much more than if he would have trashed me! I'm serious!
We've known each other for about a year and a half and he has had a lot of opportunities to be nice and get to know me... But instead of talking to me he bought me drinks... Allrit that might be nice but... since we're not friends I can't really appreciate it. Do you know what I mean or do I sound like a total jerk?
I actually would have prefered if he'd tried to bond with me. Asked aboout my favorite color, band or if I have any brothers or sisters. A small gesture to show he wanted to be friends. But no, he bought drinks... Which only gives you a hang over.
Well... I am not going to obsess or dwell over this. It's not as if I lost a friend or anything... It just bugs me that he likes/liked me but treated me that way...
And even though he does like me, it still won't change anything. I know how I feel...
Oh and yeah... There was a thunderstorm last night:D I LOOOVE thunderstorms:) And it's said that a really ig storm comming in tonight:D Can't wait... I've never experienced a thunderstorm here and I've been wanting for one to come for sooo long! I hope lightning strikes outside my door:P
Drama:)
Well... yesterday I though I was worth a bottle of wine since I've been working out soo much lately:) So I drank the wine and got bored sitting by the computer.. So I though "hey, lets go to meet Tomas when he finishes work". And so I did...
I sat on a bench a few feet from the bar. I saw Tomas finishing up... and then I see Roger walking towards me... Shit... He wanted to greet me with a kiss (that's what the canarians do:P) But I pulled my head away.. He asked if somethings wrong... (this is the guy who made me feel miserable when I worked at that bar)
So I gave him a piece of my mind... EXACTLY what I think of him. I said that I don't like him... And the he really made me mad. He asked... "Why don't you like me?" And so the drama started.. I didn't yell or anything near that.
I told him that he made me feel worthless and stupid when I worked with him.. But he didn't recognize that at all, that bastard. I told him that I don't like his personality at all.
He tried to defend himself with "I'm a greatbartender!" as if that had anything to do with....anything. I answered him with "That's because you fuck 75% of all the guests you have!"
Then I told him that I felt physically sick when he was in our apartment.
He tried to blame my feelings for the beer a was sipping on.. And I told him that I've never liked him and Tomas agreed with me.
He started to disolve right in front of me... He tried to burn me one last time: "How old are you?!". According to him and the boss Ciaran those people who are younger than they are have no saying about anything... Well...I'll never ever take that someone thinks that they are better than me and get away with it without a fight. I doesn't matter to me if you're 12 or 98... Nobody treats me disrespectfully! Nobody treats anyone disrespectfully!
It would have been soo sweet if he would have cried :D And i think he was very close to punch me in the face... soo exciting ;D
I was just sooo tired of all the pretending... I've pretended to like him for two years now... waaaay too long!
I don't like...
I don't like religion because it gives people a chance to blame their outrageous and bad behaviour on their made up friend (God).
I don't like bleach blondes because they give the naturally blondes a bad reputation.
I don't like the Pussycat dolls as a girlgroup- there's only one main singer and the other are like backup dancers
I don't like rude people because they think I'm too nice to be rude back to them
I don't like the LGBT- community because they judge each other more than the straight communiyt does
I don't like dishwasher because you get too much time on your hands. What will you do with the time you gain? Watch TV or sit by the computer?
I don't like money because I never get any.
I don't like reality tv-"stars" because they will be a-listers no matter how hard they try.
I don't like king size bes because he always sleep soo far away from me.
I don't like XBOX Live because when I play online the others make me feel like a rookie.
I don't like people like me. Complaining about things I can't do anything about
I don't like bleach blondes because they give the naturally blondes a bad reputation.
I don't like the Pussycat dolls as a girlgroup- there's only one main singer and the other are like backup dancers
I don't like rude people because they think I'm too nice to be rude back to them
I don't like the LGBT- community because they judge each other more than the straight communiyt does
I don't like dishwasher because you get too much time on your hands. What will you do with the time you gain? Watch TV or sit by the computer?
I don't like money because I never get any.
I don't like reality tv-"stars" because they will be a-listers no matter how hard they try.
I don't like king size bes because he always sleep soo far away from me.
I don't like XBOX Live because when I play online the others make me feel like a rookie.
I don't like people like me. Complaining about things I can't do anything about
Hey!
Since more english and people from elsewhere apparently reads my blog as well, I'll write this in english;)
Well... lately I've been thinking about swedish "celebrities". Those who went into the Big brother-house and went on Survivor.
You who's not from sweden won't know the people I'll talk about. Sorry!
Imagine how many people who's been those shows! Can U count how many of them who's become a real celebrity?
I can only say one: Carolina Gynning (This is my blog, so you HAVE to agree with me!:P). She has starquality! And then we have this woman who tries soo hard to stay "famous" after Big Brother. You swedes know I'm talking about: Linda Rosing/La Bionda/Bleachblond without any talent.
She's soo tragic, really! She's tried to talk about all the problems "fame" causes, she's tried to become a record artist, politcian and a realityshow (trying to find "love"... gross!). And in between these attempts she spoke to the newspapers at least two times a week about her current relationship with her now ex boyfriend.
Jesus, woman... Don't you get the hint... WE DON'T LIKE YOU!!
Oh, yeah... I just remembered... She was going to be in Playboy (which could have made her real celebrity) but then she started to do all kinds of surgery which didn't give her anything good. Playboy changed their mind when they saw the results xD And then she was supposed to get in the pornindustry. Give it a rest...
What bothers me is that all these people without just is in the way of all people with real talent. As I see it ther's just a certain space in "Celeb-Sweden" and a lot of space is taken by all those Realityshow-persons. So the newspapers and magazines need to stop write about these fuckers!
It annoys me that Paradise hotel is on tv again. A new generation of Linda Rosing's and Robinson-Robban:/
A funny thing: One of my friends were on a boatcruise and there was this realityshow "star" who's been on Ullared and he has made a musicvideo as well, which is rubbish!
People went crazy when the saw him... they asked for autograhs L.O.L
But I guess the real celebrities in Sweden is too boring... They don't stand for anything.. well BOREDOM... nothing else, really... Somebody needs to get a drugaddiction or something... just to stirr things up:P
Well... lately I've been thinking about swedish "celebrities". Those who went into the Big brother-house and went on Survivor.
You who's not from sweden won't know the people I'll talk about. Sorry!
Imagine how many people who's been those shows! Can U count how many of them who's become a real celebrity?
I can only say one: Carolina Gynning (This is my blog, so you HAVE to agree with me!:P). She has starquality! And then we have this woman who tries soo hard to stay "famous" after Big Brother. You swedes know I'm talking about: Linda Rosing/La Bionda/Bleachblond without any talent.
She's soo tragic, really! She's tried to talk about all the problems "fame" causes, she's tried to become a record artist, politcian and a realityshow (trying to find "love"... gross!). And in between these attempts she spoke to the newspapers at least two times a week about her current relationship with her now ex boyfriend.
Jesus, woman... Don't you get the hint... WE DON'T LIKE YOU!!
Oh, yeah... I just remembered... She was going to be in Playboy (which could have made her real celebrity) but then she started to do all kinds of surgery which didn't give her anything good. Playboy changed their mind when they saw the results xD And then she was supposed to get in the pornindustry. Give it a rest...
What bothers me is that all these people without just is in the way of all people with real talent. As I see it ther's just a certain space in "Celeb-Sweden" and a lot of space is taken by all those Realityshow-persons. So the newspapers and magazines need to stop write about these fuckers!
It annoys me that Paradise hotel is on tv again. A new generation of Linda Rosing's and Robinson-Robban:/
A funny thing: One of my friends were on a boatcruise and there was this realityshow "star" who's been on Ullared and he has made a musicvideo as well, which is rubbish!
People went crazy when the saw him... they asked for autograhs L.O.L
But I guess the real celebrities in Sweden is too boring... They don't stand for anything.. well BOREDOM... nothing else, really... Somebody needs to get a drugaddiction or something... just to stirr things up:P
Update
Jaa... jag har fått sparken från jobbet jag vantrivdes på! Kan inte säga att jag är ledsen eller arg... Det bara är!
Jag gjorde mitt bästa... o jag kan lugnt påstå att jag var bra på det jag gjorde (skrytsam?).
Jag fick sparken från baren för att jag drack en Red Bull, som jag tog från baren... Man fick visst inte det. Chefen kom in o började gapa på mig. Han gick därifrån och jag följde efter (skulle åt det hållet ändå). Han stog vid musikanläggningen när jag sa " du behöver inte skälla på mig för något jag inte visste om!"
"Get out of here! You're fired!"
Berättade det för Tomas så fort det hänt! Han drog mig tillbaka till chefen o sa vad han tyckte: löjligt!
Men han "hade inte tid att prata".
Såg jag promenerade hem, skrattade nästan åt situatione... vad kan man annars göra?:P
Tomas hade pratat med chefen efter de slutat och som Tomas uppfattade det så kunde inte chefen ta att en så pass ung och var anställd av honom konfronterade honom.. som är "the big boss".
Denna person (kan inte med att kalla honom för en man) är bara "a boy on a powertrip", bara för att han har makten att göra vad han känner för för stunden, så gör han det.
Som sagt: en sådan person ska inte äga en bar! Punkt och slut!
Förresten... det är mkt mer folk som läser min blogg än jag förväntat mig! Tänkte att detta bara var som en dagbok so jag skrev av mig i och att ingen skulle läsa den! Såg alla kommentarer först idag:P
Ha det bra, allihop!
:)
Jag gjorde mitt bästa... o jag kan lugnt påstå att jag var bra på det jag gjorde (skrytsam?).
Jag fick sparken från baren för att jag drack en Red Bull, som jag tog från baren... Man fick visst inte det. Chefen kom in o började gapa på mig. Han gick därifrån och jag följde efter (skulle åt det hållet ändå). Han stog vid musikanläggningen när jag sa " du behöver inte skälla på mig för något jag inte visste om!"
"Get out of here! You're fired!"
Berättade det för Tomas så fort det hänt! Han drog mig tillbaka till chefen o sa vad han tyckte: löjligt!
Men han "hade inte tid att prata".
Såg jag promenerade hem, skrattade nästan åt situatione... vad kan man annars göra?:P
Tomas hade pratat med chefen efter de slutat och som Tomas uppfattade det så kunde inte chefen ta att en så pass ung och var anställd av honom konfronterade honom.. som är "the big boss".
Denna person (kan inte med att kalla honom för en man) är bara "a boy on a powertrip", bara för att han har makten att göra vad han känner för för stunden, så gör han det.
Som sagt: en sådan person ska inte äga en bar! Punkt och slut!
Förresten... det är mkt mer folk som läser min blogg än jag förväntat mig! Tänkte att detta bara var som en dagbok so jag skrev av mig i och att ingen skulle läsa den! Såg alla kommentarer först idag:P
Ha det bra, allihop!
:)
Nytt jobb!!
Man kan ju tycka att jag ska vara lycklig att jag precis fått ett job efter öveer sex månaders letande!
Men glädjen varade i ca tre timmar på första dagen.
Ska nu jobba min femte dag och jag vill verkligen inte! Jobbar på en bar som normalt skulle vara ett jättekul jobb! Det är jättemycket folk och läget är bra! Vad är det som är fel då?
Felet ligger inte i tiderna eller hur mycket jag får betalt! Problemet är personalen!!!
De är... elaka- om jag ska beskriva med ett ord! Chefen blir ett svin när han är stressad (vilket är varje kväll) och bartendern kan inte svara en fråga på vänligt sätt.
Jag har aldrig gjort en drink. Jag har jobbat i bar förr men bara som servitör. Aldrig gjort några drinkar. Inte ens öppnat en ölflaska! (fast det kan jag ju ändå:P)
Jag sa till min chef att jag aldrig gjort en drink! Men så igår när jag jobbade så skulle jag prompt jobba som servitör- o på det stället betyder det att göra drinkar också. Jag gjorde så gott jag kunde. Men när jag gjorde fel så blev chefen jätteirriterad. Sen skulle jag ha ha två öl från fat. Jag stod o väntade- tysk öl gör man på ett spec sätt. Han ser att jag står o väntar, så försöker han dra tag i min arm och släpa med mig till ölen. Min reaktion var såklart att dra tillbaka min arm!
Det är massa saker om tynger ner mig...inte bara chefen o bartendern. Det finns tre servitörer till, varav en är min pv. En av servitörerna ser på mig som att jag är en påse skit o den ndra bara.... äh, jag vet inte...
Av åtta personer som jobbar på baren, så gillar jag bara två... Hur tror ni det känns?
När jag berättade allt som hände under lördagkvällen, så sa han att jag skulle ta dem med en nypa salt. Vaför ska jag, som uppför mig och gör så gott jag kan trippa på tå runt de som uppför sig som svin?
Om en chef som äger en välbesökt bar blir ett as när han blir stressad.... då ska man inte äga en bar! Så enkelt är det!
Jag letar fortfarande jobb... önska mig lycka till!
Men glädjen varade i ca tre timmar på första dagen.
Ska nu jobba min femte dag och jag vill verkligen inte! Jobbar på en bar som normalt skulle vara ett jättekul jobb! Det är jättemycket folk och läget är bra! Vad är det som är fel då?
Felet ligger inte i tiderna eller hur mycket jag får betalt! Problemet är personalen!!!
De är... elaka- om jag ska beskriva med ett ord! Chefen blir ett svin när han är stressad (vilket är varje kväll) och bartendern kan inte svara en fråga på vänligt sätt.
Jag har aldrig gjort en drink. Jag har jobbat i bar förr men bara som servitör. Aldrig gjort några drinkar. Inte ens öppnat en ölflaska! (fast det kan jag ju ändå:P)
Jag sa till min chef att jag aldrig gjort en drink! Men så igår när jag jobbade så skulle jag prompt jobba som servitör- o på det stället betyder det att göra drinkar också. Jag gjorde så gott jag kunde. Men när jag gjorde fel så blev chefen jätteirriterad. Sen skulle jag ha ha två öl från fat. Jag stod o väntade- tysk öl gör man på ett spec sätt. Han ser att jag står o väntar, så försöker han dra tag i min arm och släpa med mig till ölen. Min reaktion var såklart att dra tillbaka min arm!
Det är massa saker om tynger ner mig...inte bara chefen o bartendern. Det finns tre servitörer till, varav en är min pv. En av servitörerna ser på mig som att jag är en påse skit o den ndra bara.... äh, jag vet inte...
Av åtta personer som jobbar på baren, så gillar jag bara två... Hur tror ni det känns?
När jag berättade allt som hände under lördagkvällen, så sa han att jag skulle ta dem med en nypa salt. Vaför ska jag, som uppför mig och gör så gott jag kan trippa på tå runt de som uppför sig som svin?
Om en chef som äger en välbesökt bar blir ett as när han blir stressad.... då ska man inte äga en bar! Så enkelt är det!
Jag letar fortfarande jobb... önska mig lycka till!
Halloween
Danny, Tomas, Me and Tony
Halloween
Yeah... I wish it was halloween more often than just once a year!
